Archive for the ‘Loneliness’ Category

BLAME GOD!!!!!!!   Leave a comment

When this life hurts,

I mean when it really, really hurts,

know that you are where you are,

by His hand.

By His love,

His amazing love,

and by His grace,

His amazing grace,

He has allowed you to be ,

right in the very center

of that oh so painful situation.

His gorgeous knowing eyes,

smile lovingly at you

through each painful moment.

You see,

you’re on a path.

That path is taking you home.

Every time you feel pain,

it is just you,

resisting the path.

It is just you,

resisting His love,

His grace.

We are not wrestling with flesh and blood,

in these tough situations.

Don’t blame man.

Blame God,

or rather,

blame yourself

or…………..

don’t blame at all.

Just relax.

Trust!

Go with the flow.

It will be ok.

He loves you,

so stop resisting.

Learn the lesson

of surrender

and acceptance,

and move on.

Its ok.

You are loved.

Just trust.

Don’t blame.

Just let go, and enjoy the ride.

The sooner you let go

and stop trying to control everything,

the sooner it will all be over.

You are the one

causing your pain.

So…………

STOP!!!!!!!!!

TRUST IS THE TREASURE!!!!!

Find it.

J

LOOKING FOR GOD??????   Leave a comment

JUST WHAT ARE YOU REALLY LOOKING FOR?

GOD?

SO MANY BOOKS,

SO MANY WEBSITES,

SO MANY EMPTY OPINIONS,

LIKE RABBIT TRAILS THROUGH  AN EMPTY DESERT.

TIME,

IS TOSSED AWAY,

AS YOU LOOK EVERYWHERE,

THAT IS EASY.

ARE YOU READY?

READY TO FIND GOD?

READY TO MEET HIM???????

I CAN TELL YOU HOW.

STOP!

STOP LOOKING!

STOP SEEKING!

STOP PACKING  AROUND YOUR GUILT,

AND EXCUSES.

YOU HAVE BEEN SHIRKING RESPONSIBILITY.

YOU HAVE BEEN SKIRTING TRUTH,

AVOIDING YOUR OWN ACCOUNTABILITY.

YOU KNOW THAT ALL THAT

RUNNING AROUND,

SEEKING AROUND

JUST DOESN’T GET IT DONE.

CHASING THE NEXT NEW TEACHING,

OR THAT ANCIENT TEACHING,

JUST LEAVES YOU DANGLING

RIGHT WHERE YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN.

SO,

MY LITTLE ONE,

PLEASE, PLEASE,

JUST STOP.

JUST STOP LOOKING…………….

If you really want to find God,

stop looking for Him.

and start looking for yourself.

you know,

your self.

that little one,

hidden

behind so many walls.

Hidden

behind so many defenses.

That vulnerable little angel.

That precious beauty.

That one you barely remember.

You, yes, you.

So protected that you can’t

remember who you are………….

Just stop.

Take the time.

Do the work.

When you break through all YOUR walls,

and knock down all your defenses,

you will really find

that happy little you,

and God.

You see,

 He is in there too,

with you,

just waiting for you to lay down the fear,

and open the door.

The love you missed.

The love you’ve always looked for is only within.

So just give up the search.

You already are where you need to be.

Look within.

Find you.

The kingdom of God

is within.

Love you………

J

THE CHILDREN OF GOD   Leave a comment

Where

are the children of God?

 

Who

are they?

 

I love you.

Each of you.

 

Each,

so beautiful

and perfect

in my eyes.

 

My love

is beyond

your understanding.

 

My grace,

my beautiful grace,

is greater than your perception of guilt

will let you accept.

 

My forgiveness,

is only a mask,

over my love,

to help you understand.

 

You know not,

what you do.

 

You know not,

who you are.

 

And you do not, yet,

know me.

Not as you should,

or will.

 

I love you so very much,

my beautiful,

beautiful babies.

 

J

I’M LOST????   Leave a comment

I’m lost,

Or so I think.

But I’m not looking to get saved.

At least not the way you mean.

There would have to be substance,

And you don’t seem to offer that.

Lost in this world.

I’m tired of words,

And not just yours.

Jesus,

My dear Jesus,

I need help.

Sometimes I can’t see beyond the walls of the Church.

Like prison walls,

I’m told what to think,

And what not to think.

Church, prison,

Prison, Church.

I’m looking for that truth,

That makes me free.

It isn’t in the building.

I spent twenty years looking.

It isn’t allowed in.

It’s somewhere outside the walls,

With Jesus.

And now I’m out here.

Tired of words.

Tired of all the noise.

Just so desperately seeking truth.

Not your version…..

The real truth.

The one I find

only in

silence……….

J

WORLDLY????? MIND   Leave a comment

WORLDLY MIND,

THIS MIND OF THOUGHT,

BASED ON JUST WHAT?????

YOU SEE,

YOU AND ME

WE BOUGHT A THOUGHT

BEING SOLD BY THE BRASH AND BOLD

OUR SOULS TO HOLD

THOUGHTS,

SO VERY COLD…….

ANOTHER MIND,

SO DEEP I FIND

ON THAT SOFT VELVET SHELF

OF SILENCE.

FORGET GUNS

AND GOVERNMENTS

AND YOUR SWEET VERSION OF JUSTICE…..

IT’S OK

LET IT ALL FLOAT AWAY

FIND THE TRUTH

OF THE ETERNAL SILENT MIND

AND STAY

QUIETER

QUIETER

SO VERY STILL

BE

SO VERY STILL

TRUTH AND POWER,

HIDDEN IN SO GENTLE

A SETTING.

J

LOVE AGAIN   Leave a comment

LOVE,

GENTLE LOVE 

 

LOVE

IS NOT

PRIDE IN OWNERSHIP

 

LOVE

THE SIGHT

IN THE MIDST

OF AWARENESS

 

LOVE IS NOT

A PRISON

 

LOVE

THE BEAUTY

OF THE ONE

 

LOVE

IS NOT

A LIST OF DEMANDS

 

LOVE

IS GOD

WITH US,

GOD IN US

 

LOVE

IS NOT

MANIPULATION

AND CONTROL

 

LOVE IS

SEEING

SO FAR BEYOND

YOUR BULLSHIT

THAT I SEE

YOU

 

LOVE AGAIN

 

J

 

 

LOVE LIKE FROSTING   Leave a comment

LOVE

ON A WARM DAY

MELTING

RUNNING DOWN

FILLING IN ALL THE CRACKS

JUST SEE HOW THEY CRACK WITHOUT LOVE

ANYWAYS

MELTING DOWN

NOW I FEEL JUST A LITTLE BETTER

LOVE IS SO THAT WAY

LOVE

LIKE FROSTING

J

PRECIOUS LITTLE SOUL   Leave a comment

A rose
always shares
beauty
with all.
 
Then the blossom
withers,
fades,
and loses its color.
 
But it is
the same
flower.
 
An old
bent over woman
with a strange
scent.
Where has the desire
to kiss her gone?
 
Fifty years ago
her beauty
was world-renowned.
 
Too pretty
for common eyes.
The best girls
for the
best guys.
So pretty
she was.
 
Now just look.
No,
really look.
Look in her eyes.
It is her,
still her.
Still so very
beautiful.
 
The rose,
is still
the rose.
 
See the little boy
playing.
His innocence
is perfect.
He smiles
He laughs
He plays
 
He is vulnerable
and he doesn’t
even know it.
 
He is beautiful
and free.
 
A joy,
a true joy
to only
observe him.
But…..
that was sixty
years ago.
 
Now he sits
in a smokey
card room.
 
He weighs
three hundred pounds.
He takes the money
of those less savvy
than himself.
 
Horrible,
unpleasant,
a pig.
 
But look in his eyes
No,
really look………..
 
J

I AM ANNIHILATED   Leave a comment

Love is such
a strange power.
It stands alone.
 
Like the snow
on the mountain top
sends water to the ocean,
I will continue
to love.
 
I don’t need
anything back.
 
Love is like that.
Misunderstood.
 
Labels and blame
are only
the panic
of a perceived
reality.
 
They can never
stop or control
love.
 
Love from me is like rain.
It is coming to you
no matter what.
 
Labels and blame.
Hate is only
the panic
of being
out of control.
 
Out of control.
Cool!
Know this.
But leave the panic behind.
You are ok.
 
Surrender.
You don’t
need the death
of being right.
 
Know
that you
are helpless.
 
Rest
 
No need
to panic.
 
I love you.
 
I always will.
 
No matter what.
 
J

ANSWERS   Leave a comment

Do you know which questions to ask?

Knowing which questions to ask,

is the key to all the answers,

to all the questions.

So,

ask these questions……..

Who am I?

Or,

What am I?

They are the same question.

Next,

What do I want?

Not,

what does my worldly image want,

but the I within.

The last question in this list,

is to ask in the midst of every interaction,

What do you want?

Just get each person to the point.

What do you want??????

 

Answers to all your questions exist.

They can be found in one place.

All answers,

to all your questions.

One place.

Only,

live in the midst of these few questions.

Just narrow down your complex image

of yourself,

to these few questions.

Just take them within.

And if someone comes along to interupt your introspection,

just ask,

What do you want?????

All of life is just this simple.

So my love…….

Who are you?

What do you want?????

J

 

WORDS   Leave a comment

Words,

so powerful.

It is written,

that they possess the power

of life and death.

I want to live a life,

without words.

Just stillness,

inside and out.

Peace,

simple peace.

My eyes are open,

but I don’t want to see.

My ears are open,

but I don’t want to hear.

My mouth will not offend.

No unkind word,

ever.

Peace in,

peace out.

Only peace.

Only stillness.

Just awareness,

just love.

Only love………

J

LOST   Leave a comment

LOST!!!!!

IT MEANS SEPARATION.

BEEN THERE?

HELL,

I AM THERE.

WILL YOU LOOK BACK,

AND SHINE A LIGHT DOWN

THIS VERY DARK TUNNEL???????

LOVE   Leave a comment

LOVE

THE GREAT MYSTERY

LEARNED FROM A 30 MINUTE TV SHOW

THAT SHIT JUST AINT REAL

I DO LOVE

REAL LOVE

AND I THINK IT’S YOU

PASSIONATE KISSES

THEY REALLY HELP

THE TRUTH   1 comment

The truth is better.

Like water seeking level,

it seems to go where it will.

But get ready,

you might consider damage control.

The truth is just like that.

People get hurt.

Too many expectations.

It is either that,

or live up to your neck in lies.

Maybe NOBODY wants me as I really am.

That will be ok too.

The truth.

What a liberator.

 

STARBUCKS AND A BULLET   Leave a comment

Wow!

Where is peace?

What is the color of beauty?

How close do angels really fly to me?

The more I know about God,

the less there is to lean on.

So I am sitting in Starbucks,

with a bullet.

How deep is alone?

Can I just keep driving

on this road

called forever?

Please……..

can I just become a vapor??????

A cloud?

A horse on a hill,

happy to just be alone?????

This long road to empty

is really a bitch.

I am promised pain,

but you never really expect it.

It hits you from the side

when you’re looking straight ahead.

Empty road.

Empty life
Empty head. (I only wish)

Big balls.

Only rolling down this stupid hill,

called MY life.

BIG balls.

Where oh where,

is this most noble Sophia?

Not in the steeple houses.

Not in silly hymns.

She has a box or bag

or a cloud

or bright mist

full of that peace,

that rest,

that I missed.

It’s what I seek.

Rest,

that final peace.

Just now closing my eyes,

At Starbucks,

and a bullet.