Archive for the ‘Suicidal’ Category

TO KNOW GOD (2)   Leave a comment

JUST

ANOTHER

SIMPLE STEP

TO KNOWING GOD………

GOD

IS

WHAT IS.

LOVE GOD!

J

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BAD MAGNETS   Leave a comment

JUST LIKE BAD MAGNETS,

THIS WORLD OF THINKING AND REASON

AND

THE ETERNAL SILENCE WITHIN.

NO RESOLVE

ONE IS REAL

JUST ONE IS TRUTH

SILENCE

JUST HANGING OVER EVERYTHING

WITH A SECRET SMILE

J

LOST   Leave a comment

LOST!!!!!

IT MEANS SEPARATION.

BEEN THERE?

HELL,

I AM THERE.

WILL YOU LOOK BACK,

AND SHINE A LIGHT DOWN

THIS VERY DARK TUNNEL???????

LOVE   Leave a comment

LOVE

THE GREAT MYSTERY

LEARNED FROM A 30 MINUTE TV SHOW

THAT SHIT JUST AINT REAL

I DO LOVE

REAL LOVE

AND I THINK IT’S YOU

PASSIONATE KISSES

THEY REALLY HELP

STARBUCKS AND A BULLET   Leave a comment

Wow!

Where is peace?

What is the color of beauty?

How close do angels really fly to me?

The more I know about God,

the less there is to lean on.

So I am sitting in Starbucks,

with a bullet.

How deep is alone?

Can I just keep driving

on this road

called forever?

Please……..

can I just become a vapor??????

A cloud?

A horse on a hill,

happy to just be alone?????

This long road to empty

is really a bitch.

I am promised pain,

but you never really expect it.

It hits you from the side

when you’re looking straight ahead.

Empty road.

Empty life
Empty head. (I only wish)

Big balls.

Only rolling down this stupid hill,

called MY life.

BIG balls.

Where oh where,

is this most noble Sophia?

Not in the steeple houses.

Not in silly hymns.

She has a box or bag

or a cloud

or bright mist

full of that peace,

that rest,

that I missed.

It’s what I seek.

Rest,

that final peace.

Just now closing my eyes,

At Starbucks,

and a bullet.

GOD SPEAKS   Leave a comment

Somewhere,

within silence

and all the noise that clutters your mind,

I AM speaking.

Whether you are sitting

in the silence of perfection

at the top of the Himalayas,

or on a kitchen floor

overwhelmed in tears,

surrounded by the noise

and confusion

of  just plain old life,

I am speaking to you.

Don’t think that my words

are only for the religious,

or too deep to understand.

My words are not

to be hidden in a book or a building.

They are as the wind,

simply moving about

directed to all life,

all living.

YOU can understand them.

They are translated

in perfect honor and respect

of who YOU are in this very moment.

Words perfectly tailored

to communicate with your soul

in this very moment.

There is no need

for a priest

or a great teacher.

You need only take a moment

and listen.

Just get very quiet,

 and listen.

I will do the rest.

I know you.

I know you better

than you could ever know yourself

at this stage of your existence.

So take just a moment.

This moment.

And listen.

Hear my words

spoken only for you.

Just listen.

I am speaking.

I love you.

 

I HAVE MISSED YOU   Leave a comment

There are times,

when you think

that you are alone.

I know that you feel,

the pain and ache of

loneliness,

but it is only a mistake,

confusion.

No matter what

it seems like

or how you feel,

you are never alone.

Not ever.

I AM

beside you.

I AM

always

with you.

I AM

forever

loving you.

Always

loving you.

Just loving you.

 

I want that feeling

of loneliness that you have

to leave you forever.

Never feel it again.

So turn toward me.

Look at me.

Glance in my direction.

Lean your thoughts toward me.

That’s all it takes.

Just lean in my direction.

I miss you.

I see you

every day.

Every minute

of every day.

I watch

as you struggle

through the day,

trying to do it all yourself,

as though I don’t even exist.

I do.

I AM

right here.

Right here beside you.

Loving you.

I miss you.

Couldn’t you just

give me a chance?

A chance to

do this with you.

Lets get together,

and go at each day

as a team.

Me and you.

When I say

that I miss you,

it is because you just don’t know

how really well you know me.

I am the best part of you

and you are the best part of me.

Please,

just turn to me.

Remember me.

I AM

your beginning.

I AM

your end.

I AM

your breath

and life.

No,

my most precious one,

you are not alone.

Just think of me.

Call my name.

Listen deep inside

for a moment.

You are so

not alone.

Please my little one,

know the depths

of my love for you.

Be with me.

Nothing

can come against you

when we are together.

Be conscious of me.

I am here

just loving you.

You are not alone.

Know this.

You are not alone.

Please, please

be with me.

I miss you.